It really doesn't much matter what any of us think of your earning your shodan. What matters is what it means to you. Ultimately, the experience is personal for each dan candidate.
To the outside world a black belt has a mystique of specialized fighting skills. IMHO, to the board a Shodan test is a vehicle for maintaining and transmitting the standards of the system. To each individual a shodan test is a means demonstrating the knowledge and skills that one has gained over the past few years. But it may also represent a very personal victory (over fear of physical danger, over lack of self control, etc.),
Just like any other significant life event, you will carry the memory of your shodan test to your grave. In relation to the world's population you are one of the few individuals who has the resources, will, discipline, and stamina to make this attempt Embrace the experience, hold it close, perform your best and whether you pass or fail, celebrate with joy afterwards.
Let us know how it goes.