Lori my friend, I can tell you, you are fighting a tough battle. I can relate to your frustration but let me assure you, "Life IS fair", if you take the unfairness and use it to your advantage. You must take the time to heal physically, rush that and your frustration will go on and on. Believe me, I've been there, done that. George Sensei was after me to play golf whenever I felt up to it, I pushed it by hitting golf balls too soon and it laid me up for another month and a half. He kept telling me, when I can play, join him. Well I never thought I would be able to play again. But, I healed, met George, played terribly, but was so elated (and a bit sore), I fell in love with the game again. This will make you a better teacher, YOU will get more out of your teaching. If you can teach in your present condition, think how you will teach when you are whole again. I can still teach, different?? yes, but I can teach. My hit is permanent, you will heal and be better because of it all. Think of all the knowledge stored away for your students. I can't remember for sure where I read this, I think one of George's books, it impressed me so and does even more now. I can't remember all of it but took out the part for me. "As imperfect as I am, I strive to make my students perfect". Take your time physically, turn the unfairness around and use it, it will make you a better student, teacher and person. By the way, my number 2 daughter is named Lori, Lori Ann, and she is a beautiful person in every way. I'm sure you are too, the name fits. To be considered one of your teachers is indeed, my honor.