That's a great post. It answers one question about ma people being tough. Of course that was really a known anyway. Your experiences with injuries really ring a bell. Isn't it something what we just take in stride. I can remember one sparring session, I took a real good shot in my left eye area. (we didn't wear any type pads in those days,no hands or feet). We used control to the head but that sometimes went out the window too. Anyway, that night I started getting a shiner, a real beaute that kept spreading and spreading. The next night when I got to the dojo, my teacher Art Rabesa was there and a fellow named John from out of town who would visit us about once a month and work out. I walk in and when Art saw my face he said "See John, I told you it was a good class last night." Typical Rabesa. lol. We loved it though. Getting back to the meds. must say that I have resorted to the conventional stuff. I had to make a quick decision when I was first diagnosed, to go conventional treatment or alternative. Since we knew nothing about this type cancer, my wife and I decided to go conventional. Radiation, chemo, bone marrow transplant and all the rest. I did get some pain relief, big time from Steve Benson, his hands did wonders for me. You are right about Dr. X. He doesn't agree, but many doctors are beginning to change and are looking at these different treatments. If it works do it, that's my way of thinking. The conventional treatment and meds. for me, maybe, gave me some time, they have now failed, now I am trying more. I just heard today that a young lady, a friends daughter, who has the same cancer as I do, has relapsed after her xplant, only 2 yrs ago. I saw her after her xplant and several times since, encouraging her and now she has relapsed too. I haven't told her about my condition because I was always there for her and I think it would really shake her unnecessarily. It bothers me when they are so young. Well got off the track there. I may have a new "spot" rearing it's ugly head. Will know Monday if it is Myeloma related. They think so. The doctors now want me to increase the pain meds. and truthfully, I've had to do that. I hope the radiation takes care of the pain and the pills won't be necessary. I don't think I have to be worried about addiction. I just hate to give in. I will be doing my san chin sideways. lol. Bye for now.