I titled the subject "back to normal?" with a question mark, because what used to be normal for me, is not so any longer. It has changed with this wonderful teaching experience I've recently had.
Steve is almost fully mended now, and will be returning to teach "his" (lol) classes, which "was" normal....yet I don't think I could completely give up the reigns now, after having driven the coach- so to speak. The growth within myself, after being able to teach is immeasurable and not even completely realized as of yet, I know. But I feel it. I want to know how all the children are doing with their practice- I want to be a part of it. I want to be there to help them through any discouraging times. I feel connected to them all now.
I tried many techniques, and saw many that worked, some that didn't. I learned how to guide and contrtol the class, how to "teach" them what I wanted them to learn, and I saw "it stick" through the weeks. They remembered!
The last class I taught- without the aid of my own Sensei (Steve) left the parents slack-jawed. In a good way LOL. The kids worked hard- they paid attention- they learned- then they took it home and "kept" it with them. If not in physical practice- then by behavior changes. Many of our students have Adhd or add or some other emotional trouble, where they have either been reccommened by the state to us to learn discipline, or by past students, etc. Every single child imporved in some way. Those children that have begun karate out of sheer intrist- have excelled so wonderfully, I can't wait for Steve to come back and see. I'm so proud of "my kids".
The best thing that could have happened-
I was still nervous, maybe even afraid to test for black- I felt much less secure in my own abilities- due in no part to my Sensei- but from my own lack of confidense etc.
Teaching has changed this for me. I'm excited to test for black. Excited not for the color, not for the rank, but to begin my journey as a Uechi-Ryuy practitioner- (karateka?)
Of coarse I believe a good candidate always holds a measure of fear- but maybe now, I have a better understanding of what to do with it, and how to make it work for me.
It was such a wonderful experience.
Thanks for listening/(reading)