You are being very honest
Nothing personal ever meant at all ,and because enlightenment is more a rare event in life ,than something quite common to our understanding ,its natural to me over the years to welcome other views .
We now have to get things into there proper order ,and there is one with enlightenment .
As already mentioned there are levels of enlightenment ,a kensho is not a satori ,a satori indicates something deeper ,and we can have a luke warm satori .
We have a before experience ,then we have a enlightenment experience ,then we have a after experience .
This is quite similar to the statement used in Uechi-ryu " The beginning is the end and the end is the beginning "
Its similar but not quite the same .
The young monk indicates nothing of his englightenment content ,other than he's had one verified by the master, then he indicates a typical condition which is taciturn upon a after enquiry by others .
Here is the Budda at the perfect enlightenment stage ,which is not a passive reflection ;not conceptual ,not discursive understanding ,not intellectual,not negative not nihilistic .
That the ushering of enlightenment is accompanied by the feeling of return or rememberance.
It is as though something forces its way into consciousness and consciousness suddenly remembers .
" Through birth and rebirth's endless round ,seeking in vain , I hastened on , to find who framed this edifice ,what misery !-birth incessantly !
'O builder ! I've discovered thee !This fabric thou shall ne'er rebuild ! the rafters are all broken now,and pointed roof demolished lies ! This mind has demolition reached,and seen the last of all desire !"
After enlightenment verse .
This that through many toils I've won - Enough ! why should I make it known by folk with lust and hate consumed ,not this the truth that can be grasped ! against the stream of common thought' deep subtle delicate , unseen 'twill be by passion's slaves cloaked in the murk of ignorance."