by maxwell ainley » Sat Sep 14, 2002 1:31 pm
cont,
I said there is no set pattern to this type of training and most of all the experience's that accompany effort made ,uncovering that what's been lost sight of can be long term toil ,and the longer it goe's on can drain one of real commitment ,so we can settle for second best and more or less give up on our original zest and purpose .
Any one undertaking this committment ,will enter into a very hard battle make no mistake of this .
A bit from my practice ,the pressure was on I was tiger like, primordial stalking that's how I felt ,some friends thought I was mad, others just over keen. My Uechi instructor D Scott Senesei I wondered what he thought ,on reflection I was a man on mission heading towards a experience that would change forever my whole belief system ,my hope's fear's etc.
Enroute all my feelings were held in a sort of strangle hold I feared no one ,when in local danger spots ,were the toughs were ,and my normal reaction would be sort of apprehensive like , I displayed no fear ,the predators to me were prey .The worst and best in me was some how on hold ,I didn't no I was on a collision course in the not too distant future with the enlightenment event.
max ainley
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max ainley