PAIN- delivering & recieving
My friend Trey and I dicussed the bonding element of JLFS, it was 'the test,' or as its referred to in legal systems- "The Beat-In.". The delivery & the endurance of these primal initiations was what we shared. The guys that didn't cut-it aren't around anymore. Everyone got back up, said they were fine and went back in for another helping. Collectively, we all endured and honestly were not bothered by the pain we incurred during the test. Physical pain, we deal with everyday and it really doesn't bother us. My friend Joe's death HURTS. A pain we are not use to dealing with. I feel that collectively, as individuals, daily we go to our 'crying spots' and weep like a 4yr old lost in a department store. I know I do.- Happy face, "I'm fine," then off to the bathroom to weep again, freshen up and collect ourselves. The toughest men & women I know and we are shut down by our loss. To paraphrase Ving Rhames in PULP FICTION- "...No, I am not fine, I'm far from fine. I'm pretty much F¥£€Ed up...".
Joe would laugh at me and want me (us) to laugh.
Let's all go out and get someone to pull our finger or 'crack our back' and lets fart on them, today.
My grief is all selfish. I miss my friend.
(And now, Joe would call me a 'Homo.'")
Seminar tomorrow night....Eulogy in N.C. ......Memorial workot with JLFS blackbelts ....Military Funeral......reception.
Then the journey continues..... I will always share, and never forget the wisdom, confidence, friendship and love that Joe instilled in me over the last 30 years Goodbye my friend and thank you....I will make you proud your legacy will live on through me