The day my teacher walked up to me and handed me a black colored belt and then walked away in silence, I had no idea that I was doomed to spend the rest of my life trying to earn it.
Perhaps you're placing too much value on the belt. And after all, it was just a shodan. In Asia, that's the equivalent of a high school diploma. There's no reason why most average people can't achieve one.
I'd like to offer that you shouldn't be looking back to this as some endpoint. Rather this should have been perceived as a ticket to your journey ahead. Allow it to be torn in half, take your half, and proceed on your path.
Keep the faith!